oday was the best day of my life. I can’t believe I was lucky enough to meet two of my favourite actors in the world, I can’t express how grateful I am. As I took the train to London this morning I was more nervous than I’d ever been, I thought that as soon as I saw Benedict I would surely faint or burst into tears… and I expected to be really intimidated by Martin Freeman because he’s such a big star now! But as soon as Martin came over and shook my hand I just felt happy, he was so lovely and his smile warmed the cockles of my heart. I must admit that when Benedict came over and stood next to me I felt very shaky and as though my heart was ready to burst out of my chest, but as soon as he asked my name and spoke to me it was simply wonderful. Martin was a real charmer and Benedict was so funny and unlike anyone I’ve ever seen before.
They were both so incredibly kind about my artwork, it was so bizarre having two such talented people say that something I do is “amazing”, when I look up to them so much. As they took the drawings out of the envelopes and gasped and praised me I felt like my heart was going to explode then and there. They said it was the best fan art they’ve ever received. It made me want to break down. To have Benedict Cumberbatch say I’m “talented” is something which I just can’t handle or comprehend. I just couldn’t get my head round it. I feel so overwhelmed right now, the whole experience was so very surreal. I feel so incredibly happy, it was so amazing. I feel kind of dumbstruck right now, I can’t believe it happened to me.
This was the drawing I gave to Benedict as a gift, and this one for Martin. I’m keeping the signed one for myself, forever.
Also I thought I’d just point out the LENGTH OF BENEDICT’S FINGER I MEAN WHAT IS THAT
You are so lucky! You all so adorable. and those pictures are SO GOOD! You DO have real talent! I’m so happy for you :)
Without knowing the context of the scene, you would look at this shot and you would wonder what happened to Stefan. What has happened to him to make him look so anguished? What hit has he taken? What defeat has been given to him? Why can he barely breathe? What has happened to him?
“I’m getting her out of my life and I’m starting a life of my own.”
Nothing happened to him. It happened to her. But there is no separation nor a difference between the two, there never is and there never will be:
“You’re in hell which means that I’m in hell.”
I don’t think even Stefan understands the degree to which he and Elena are forever bound to the concept of this; long before the words were spoken, the truth of this statement has been seamed into each season. In S1, he screamed for her to leave and she refused, telling him she wasn’t going anywhere. She was going to sit beside him and listen to him and talk with him for however long it took. In S2 she cried as she lost person after person and he cried with her. In S3, again he pushed and pushed and pushed at her to just let him be, let him be this monster, this person, this ripper and her only response was that she knew him. She knew him better than anyone. Again and again and again it is there; when one is lost, the other refuses to give up until they are found. When one is in grief, the other grieves too. Aside from everything else, from what has changed, to what they have done to each other, this idea of being inevitably affected simply because the other is affected has stayed absolutely the same.
I am in this with/for/beside you.